Min is Lost And Lonely


Thursday, September 08, 2005

 STUPID STUPID & USELESS Min.....

haiz.. dunno what is wrong with mi... mi told miself a zillion times to gave up.. mi told miself a zillion times to move on.. mi told miself a zillion times to forget about him.. but it all doesn't work..

just 2 days ago.. he initiate a conversation with me in msn.. mi so glad tat his nick is no more the sad sad one in jap. the one which says tat he is crying cos someone has left him.. mi heart was bumping so fast... so hard.. *bum.. bum.. bum...* like its jumping out of mi chest.. oh god.. we talked about the usual stuff.. hows life.. hows mi job.. how he is doing in school..

the comex exhibition came up.. mi was complaining tat mi really wanna go.. but got no khakis.. then cannot find time so missed it.. guess what he said! he said that if he knew that mi wanna go he would have "DRAG MI ALONG!!" mi was floating on cloud nine.. OH MY! mi wanna faintz..

after tat we discuss abt animes.. he shared alot with mi.. he even offered to lend mi his price collection of animes.. moreover.. he is even willing to borrow his friends animes when mi mention some titles of animes mi wanna watch which he dun hav! dun really care if he really means tat.. he suugest tat mi should read the comices instead of watching the animes.. he said he will lend mi the whole set of comics! some titles hav more then 100 books liao! mi was touched by his gesture.. well.. u might hav think tat its not a big deal.. maybe if it comes from someone else.. mi wun think that its an issue at all.. but from him. it means the world to me...

then it strikes mi..

1) he did say tat he will hav drag mi along 2 d comex wif him
2) he did offered to lend mi his comics and animes..

so tat means... he is not resistant of meeting mi? he is willing to meet mi? he will ask mi 2 meet one day? just a short while to pass mi the comics or animes? or an outing!?!?!?

god.. mi so excited.. so many tots flashing in mi head..

then sonya woke mi up.. and thanks to her.. mi realise its all mi wishful thinking.. STOP IT MIN!

stop dreaming.. its not EVER goin 2 come true.. it not.. not in d past.. not now.. not ever..


written by min @ 9/08/2005 11:15:00 PM
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