Min is Lost And Lonely


Thursday, September 15, 2005

 Confusions! Confusions!

oh well.. dunno wats wrong wif mi.. mi so confused... as usual..

1) if u hav read mi previously.. its regarding meeting A.. though its oni a veri veri casual meet up.. its jus tat he wanna lend mi his vcds and/or comics.. its the kind of meet up which can happened between any 2 acquaintance...

so y am mi so anxious abt it? so y isit tat d issue keep lingering in mi mind?

haven seen him after we broke up.. tat means its been more then 2 years since mi last saw him liao.. so y isit after so long tat he finally initiate a meet up? even if its a casual one?

has tis got anithing to do with his recent breakup?

or isit tat he has got no motive or any intentions? he is merely politely and innocently jus wanting to lend mi his animes or comics? mi can't stop thinking abt it.. mi dunno if mi should meet him..

if yes.. then where? when? how? what? how shld mi react when mi see him? wat shld mi say?

if no.. y not? how shld mi reject his offer?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!



2) yesterday is mi 1st off day.. actually wanna laze at home and sleep mi day away.. then B called to ask mi wat time mi goin to work.. so mi told him tat he made a mistake and wanna continue mi beauty sleep..

he truely sound disappointed.. he wanted to gif mi a surprise.. thus he took 2 hours time off to leave earlier and pick mi up to work.. then he suggest meeting 4 dinner instead.. but mi cold blooded mah.. though abit touched by his gesture but sleep more importent rite.. he keep on trying to convience mi to meet him lor.. mi keep giving him excuses but finally gif in.. so agreed to meet for dinner but dun wanna go too far..

then he suggest westmall.. JP.. causeway pt.. Lot 1.. blah.. mi shot down all his suggestions.. purposely make things difficult for him mah.. after tat he ask mi wat mi wanna hav.. mi ask him to suggest again.. so d same thing happened lor.. mi find fault wif everything he said.. think he squeeze his brain juice dry liao.. then he ask mi if mi like claypot rice.. he knows a stall in claypot rice stall in sun plaza which is not bad.. mi replied tat mi oni like claypot rice cooked by mi grandmama and tat stall in chinatown.. after tat mi feel abit mean so told him tat claypot rice in sun plaza is fine for mi..

he is suppose to meet mi near mi place.. when he arrive he was abit breathless.. he was running cos he dun wanna keep mi running.. he got tis big plastic bag in his hand.. he said if u dun wanna go so far to hav d claypot rice, mi will bring it to u.. keke.. kinda mushy hor.. *puke* think he is the 1st guy to do tis.. except for mi papa.. lolz..

after dinner we went went to coffe bean.. sit down.. relax.. and chat.. coffee bean chased us out siak.. so we sat down in a park and chat.. until 2am in the morning.. he mus be crazy.. cos he is working morning shift! keke..

recently he has been putting in alot of effort to make mi happy.. sms.. phonecalls.. small surprises.. he asked mi out on 21st by a his special invitation "card".. its a message in a bottle.. not impressive but mi appreaciate his effort..

however hard he try.. he doesn't seems to get into mi heart.. unlike A.. A doesn't even need to do anything at all and he can easily gets mi crazy... why isit so?


written by min @ 9/15/2005 11:45:00 PM
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