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Tuesday, February 01, 2005
GrAnNy....
Hmm.. Feel very stress about it.. But no where to vent it out.. So decide to dump it here.. Granny, (mi mummy’s mummy), have experience severe abdominal pain for about a few month.. but she bear with the pain and refused to seek treatment.. She did not tell anyone about this matter until 2 weeks ago.. We took her to the hospital.. Doctor discover a tumor in her stomach.. So she must stay in the hospital for further observation.. After blood test, dozens of screening and much agonizing wait.. Finally docs found out what’s wrong.. They have discovered numerous tumors in her stomach.. Some of which pressed against her nerves, hence the pain.. She has been diagnosed with stomach cancer.. The cancer cells have spread… they cannot operate on her..
Mummy have been crying everyday.. She have to do her usual chores at home plus the chores at granny’s house.. Then she have to take care of mi cousin.. Every morning she visit granny.. Come home in the afternoon.. Cook for granny and rush to the hospital again.. She is constantly emotional and moody.. So she tends to shout at mi more then usual.. Which is understandable.. Can see that she is really tired, worried, frustrated and of course extremely sad..
Then mi also try to visit her as often as mi could.. Tiring also.. Then the medical fees cost a bomb.. Mi thinking of contributing some part of it.. So gotta save a bit more.. Kinda pissed when thinking about money.. Some of mi uncle and unties really.. Dunno what to say.. When they got into trouble (loan sharks.. Wanna buy this and that have no $, divorce have no $ to pay lawyer fees and alimony… Whatever shit..), they will always run to granny and ask her to help.. NOT PAISEH AT ALL!! But every time granny needs help (sick.. depress..), they will not even ask about it.. They all expect mummy to settle it.. Cos she is the eldest.. Which.. In mi opinion.. IS SO DARN SELFISH! ARH!!
Mummy losing weight.. See her like zombie.. Granny look worse.. Haiz.. Feel so helpless.. on the outside mi appear to be very calm.. But sometimes mi feel like crying too.. But have to be strong.. So when mi feel like crying.. Mi go back to my routine of hiding beneath mi pillow and sob quietly..
MIN, HANG IN THERE!
Mummy have been crying everyday.. She have to do her usual chores at home plus the chores at granny’s house.. Then she have to take care of mi cousin.. Every morning she visit granny.. Come home in the afternoon.. Cook for granny and rush to the hospital again.. She is constantly emotional and moody.. So she tends to shout at mi more then usual.. Which is understandable.. Can see that she is really tired, worried, frustrated and of course extremely sad..
Then mi also try to visit her as often as mi could.. Tiring also.. Then the medical fees cost a bomb.. Mi thinking of contributing some part of it.. So gotta save a bit more.. Kinda pissed when thinking about money.. Some of mi uncle and unties really.. Dunno what to say.. When they got into trouble (loan sharks.. Wanna buy this and that have no $, divorce have no $ to pay lawyer fees and alimony… Whatever shit..), they will always run to granny and ask her to help.. NOT PAISEH AT ALL!! But every time granny needs help (sick.. depress..), they will not even ask about it.. They all expect mummy to settle it.. Cos she is the eldest.. Which.. In mi opinion.. IS SO DARN SELFISH! ARH!!
Mummy losing weight.. See her like zombie.. Granny look worse.. Haiz.. Feel so helpless.. on the outside mi appear to be very calm.. But sometimes mi feel like crying too.. But have to be strong.. So when mi feel like crying.. Mi go back to my routine of hiding beneath mi pillow and sob quietly..
MIN, HANG IN THERE!
written by min @ 2/01/2005 10:39:00 PM
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