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Monday, December 13, 2004
PaSs OuT LiAo!
its been like... OoOoOps.. more then a month since mi last updated?? Oh.. NooOoOoo... keke.. sorry to all mi faithful followers.. keep you guys waiting for so long.. paiseh paiseh.. mi try to summerise the more significant happenings during the past 1 month...
AbOuT TrAiNiNg
YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh !!!! finally survive the training.. more then then 3 months of suffering! no more area cleaning.. no more fighting.. no need to carry the ever so heavy shield and taticial gears... lesser chance of injuries and blueblacks.. no more killer physical training... So HaPpY!!
cannot see my friends everyday.. cannot joke around with them as much.. cannot this and that.. going to miss them terribly... sobz... So SaD!
AbOuT GuYs
complicated... so troubled and confused... to make it simple.. going to simplify it into a short summary...
Part One: The Story Of Min And P
well.. think start from the beginning ba.. mi met P long before training.. saw him a few times during interview... job preview.. bond signing.. even saw his girl friend for 5 years.. so mi knew he got a girlfriend liao..
during the training.. mi and P was put into the same small squad.. we get along very well.. but not that close.. until that tactical training.. the training really though.. during the first day of that tactical training, mi injured mi neck quite badly.. so painful.. cannot even lift up.. but mi still bear with the pain and continue.. mi injury only got worse.. most of the squad mates and instructors dun believe the injury is that bad.. they just ask mi to try harder.. some even think that mi pretending to be injuried.. not many show concern..
except him..
can see that he worry about mi.. he even help mi massage.. encourage mi.. that day we were allowed to book out.. he could have hang out with his friends.. he could have rest at home cause he live so near.. but he call his mother beforehand and ask her to check out where is the chinese sinseh.. then he accompany mi to the sinseh, waited for mi and took mi to dinner.. then he invited mi to his house to rest before booking in.. mi feel abit better (physically).. continue with training.. unfortunately.. the injury worsen.. when we booked out that friday.. he brought mi to another chinese sinseh for acupunture.. he got his mum to queue and register.. his mama ask the doctor to stay back cause we were quite late and the clinic closing liao.. mi scared stiffed.. the thought of needles poking into mi skin.. EEeEEe! but he accompnay mi.. gave mi courage and strength.. he totally lifted up my spirit.. its like.. when you are stuck in a pitch dark bottomless pit.. and he is the one who pulls you up..
the other time which is more significant to mi is the period during outward bound.. we have to carry very bag packs.. in it are your personal items.. food.. tentage.. mi feel like mi falling backwards when mi carrying the bacpack sia.. he help mi carry alot of stuff.. lighten up my load.. he keep mi entertained while we tracking the whole island of ubin.. he made sure mi dun slip or hurt miself.. always there to help mi up steep slopes or to get down.. he cooked for mi.. find mi a place to sleep.. we are required to canoe.. keke.. he paddled more.. when he sees that mi tired.. he will ask mi to rest.. there is this part of the expedition.. where the instructors ask us to canoe to a strandard island.. then they dumped us there to stay for the night.. when we reached the island.. everybody was drenched.. cause it is raining quite heavily.. the worse part is my clotes in the bag all wet liao.. so mi got no dry clothes to change.. then its really freezing cold.. te wind was so strong on the island.. he got two dry shirts.. and he gave both to mi.. keke.. mi was kept warm.. poor him caught a cold.. mi was so touched.. he is like my guardian angel..
well.. mi went to his house for a few times liao.. and his parents kinda know mi.. especially his mum.. treat mi really nice.. she even sms mi to ask how am mi doing and stuff.. mi got visit him when he was sick.. meet him on the way to school to book in.. it was like so natural.. then he called mi one day which is near to the exams.. he dun sound too well.. then he practially begged mi to go over to study with him.. mi rejected him lor.. but he plead and plead so mi finally gave in.. when mi reached his house, mi pull out all mi notes and started to study.. after a while, he suddenly hold mi hands very tightly.. mi was kinda shocked and dunno how to reaction.. so he keep holding mi hands and confess his feelings for mi.. then he hug mi.. so tightly until mi almost lost mi breath.. mi totally stone.. so he progress by trying to kiss mi.. by then finally mi realise what he is trying to do and try to push him off.. but he too strong.. after struggling for a while.. he then come to his senses and let go of mi.. he apologise for his actions.. but he keep emphasis that his love for mi is true.. mi cannot accept it leh.. the blow quite big for mi.. how could he do that to mi? isn't he mi guardian angel?
from that day onwards.. our friendship changed thoroughly.. in a negative way.. so weird.. mi sub-consciously keep avoiding him.. the feeling sucks.. big time.. cannot go back to the days before liao.. he tried to explain and make up for what he has done.. but mi simply cannot erase that night from mi memory.. mi tried to re-accept him.. but.. mi failed... sad.. very sad..
finally.. mi still rejected him...
Part Two: The Story Of Min And Aidil
well.. this is the part that hurts mi most.. we really clicked.. we really enjoyed each others company.. during training, we are almost inseparable.. he is always there to bully mi, help mi, sour mi, play with mi, make mi laugh, make mi angry.. anything.. he exist alot in mi memory of training.. dunno since when.. he have become quite significant in mi life..
then as usual.. rumours started to arise and spread.. blah.. but it din affect our special friendship at all.. it only gets deeper each day.. he did playful hint hint about his feelings towards mi lah.. but mi din really gave it serious thoughts.. laughed it off.. until that night.. mi was lying on the open ground.. gazing at the star filled sky.. really beautiful.. dunno when he came and lie down beside mi.. we were talking and then he turn his head and look at mi.. he brush mi hair and touch mi hands slowly.. and.. well.. he told mi that he really like mi alot.. he even compose a poem for mi.. that reminds mi.. mi copied it down leh.. where did mi put it?? *headache*
after training, we still keep in contact.. he called quite often and we hang out alot too... he always sent mi home.. although he lives in the other end of singapore.. keke.. make him spent alot on taxi fare.. we really behave like a couple.. sometimes we hold hands.. hug.. mi like to lean on his shoulders.. even more on his 6 pack adnominal!! haha.. sweet memories..
sigh.. but talked to him liao.. really clear it out.. we cannot be anything more then friends.. our culture and religion differences.. too much to think about.. so... have to draw a line ba.. it hurts.. *sobz*
Part Three: The Story Of Min And Sze Hang
hmm.. he is a hong kong guy.. veri funny and comical.. entertaining.. mi influenced by him.. tend to use cantonese more often.. he sings quite well.. he plays the guitar! kwel! we din really hang out alot during training.. we got close after training.. keke.. weird.. went out a few times with him.. veri gentleman.. we always veri goofy together.. doing stupid things... lame conversations.. it was alot of fun.. we have quite a few common interest.. borrowed alot of things from him.. lost count of how many vcds, dvds and comics mi borrowed from him liao..
dunno since went he sent mi loving loving sms.. he compose a song for me! keke.. then.. one fine day.. he sms mi.. confess his feelings.. want mi to give him a chance to love, protect and take care of mi.. haiz.. rejected him also.. we are still good buddies.. he treat mi like before.. veri caring.. haiz...
Conclusion
dunno what mi do lah.. dun wanna break other people's heart leh.. especially people whom mi cares alot for.. mi fated to have no luck in love? sad..
AbOuT TrAiNiNg
YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh YeAh !!!! finally survive the training.. more then then 3 months of suffering! no more area cleaning.. no more fighting.. no need to carry the ever so heavy shield and taticial gears... lesser chance of injuries and blueblacks.. no more killer physical training... So HaPpY!!
cannot see my friends everyday.. cannot joke around with them as much.. cannot this and that.. going to miss them terribly... sobz... So SaD!
AbOuT GuYs
complicated... so troubled and confused... to make it simple.. going to simplify it into a short summary...
Part One: The Story Of Min And P
well.. think start from the beginning ba.. mi met P long before training.. saw him a few times during interview... job preview.. bond signing.. even saw his girl friend for 5 years.. so mi knew he got a girlfriend liao..
during the training.. mi and P was put into the same small squad.. we get along very well.. but not that close.. until that tactical training.. the training really though.. during the first day of that tactical training, mi injured mi neck quite badly.. so painful.. cannot even lift up.. but mi still bear with the pain and continue.. mi injury only got worse.. most of the squad mates and instructors dun believe the injury is that bad.. they just ask mi to try harder.. some even think that mi pretending to be injuried.. not many show concern..
except him..
can see that he worry about mi.. he even help mi massage.. encourage mi.. that day we were allowed to book out.. he could have hang out with his friends.. he could have rest at home cause he live so near.. but he call his mother beforehand and ask her to check out where is the chinese sinseh.. then he accompany mi to the sinseh, waited for mi and took mi to dinner.. then he invited mi to his house to rest before booking in.. mi feel abit better (physically).. continue with training.. unfortunately.. the injury worsen.. when we booked out that friday.. he brought mi to another chinese sinseh for acupunture.. he got his mum to queue and register.. his mama ask the doctor to stay back cause we were quite late and the clinic closing liao.. mi scared stiffed.. the thought of needles poking into mi skin.. EEeEEe! but he accompnay mi.. gave mi courage and strength.. he totally lifted up my spirit.. its like.. when you are stuck in a pitch dark bottomless pit.. and he is the one who pulls you up..
the other time which is more significant to mi is the period during outward bound.. we have to carry very bag packs.. in it are your personal items.. food.. tentage.. mi feel like mi falling backwards when mi carrying the bacpack sia.. he help mi carry alot of stuff.. lighten up my load.. he keep mi entertained while we tracking the whole island of ubin.. he made sure mi dun slip or hurt miself.. always there to help mi up steep slopes or to get down.. he cooked for mi.. find mi a place to sleep.. we are required to canoe.. keke.. he paddled more.. when he sees that mi tired.. he will ask mi to rest.. there is this part of the expedition.. where the instructors ask us to canoe to a strandard island.. then they dumped us there to stay for the night.. when we reached the island.. everybody was drenched.. cause it is raining quite heavily.. the worse part is my clotes in the bag all wet liao.. so mi got no dry clothes to change.. then its really freezing cold.. te wind was so strong on the island.. he got two dry shirts.. and he gave both to mi.. keke.. mi was kept warm.. poor him caught a cold.. mi was so touched.. he is like my guardian angel..
well.. mi went to his house for a few times liao.. and his parents kinda know mi.. especially his mum.. treat mi really nice.. she even sms mi to ask how am mi doing and stuff.. mi got visit him when he was sick.. meet him on the way to school to book in.. it was like so natural.. then he called mi one day which is near to the exams.. he dun sound too well.. then he practially begged mi to go over to study with him.. mi rejected him lor.. but he plead and plead so mi finally gave in.. when mi reached his house, mi pull out all mi notes and started to study.. after a while, he suddenly hold mi hands very tightly.. mi was kinda shocked and dunno how to reaction.. so he keep holding mi hands and confess his feelings for mi.. then he hug mi.. so tightly until mi almost lost mi breath.. mi totally stone.. so he progress by trying to kiss mi.. by then finally mi realise what he is trying to do and try to push him off.. but he too strong.. after struggling for a while.. he then come to his senses and let go of mi.. he apologise for his actions.. but he keep emphasis that his love for mi is true.. mi cannot accept it leh.. the blow quite big for mi.. how could he do that to mi? isn't he mi guardian angel?
from that day onwards.. our friendship changed thoroughly.. in a negative way.. so weird.. mi sub-consciously keep avoiding him.. the feeling sucks.. big time.. cannot go back to the days before liao.. he tried to explain and make up for what he has done.. but mi simply cannot erase that night from mi memory.. mi tried to re-accept him.. but.. mi failed... sad.. very sad..
finally.. mi still rejected him...
Part Two: The Story Of Min And Aidil
well.. this is the part that hurts mi most.. we really clicked.. we really enjoyed each others company.. during training, we are almost inseparable.. he is always there to bully mi, help mi, sour mi, play with mi, make mi laugh, make mi angry.. anything.. he exist alot in mi memory of training.. dunno since when.. he have become quite significant in mi life..
then as usual.. rumours started to arise and spread.. blah.. but it din affect our special friendship at all.. it only gets deeper each day.. he did playful hint hint about his feelings towards mi lah.. but mi din really gave it serious thoughts.. laughed it off.. until that night.. mi was lying on the open ground.. gazing at the star filled sky.. really beautiful.. dunno when he came and lie down beside mi.. we were talking and then he turn his head and look at mi.. he brush mi hair and touch mi hands slowly.. and.. well.. he told mi that he really like mi alot.. he even compose a poem for mi.. that reminds mi.. mi copied it down leh.. where did mi put it?? *headache*
after training, we still keep in contact.. he called quite often and we hang out alot too... he always sent mi home.. although he lives in the other end of singapore.. keke.. make him spent alot on taxi fare.. we really behave like a couple.. sometimes we hold hands.. hug.. mi like to lean on his shoulders.. even more on his 6 pack adnominal!! haha.. sweet memories..
sigh.. but talked to him liao.. really clear it out.. we cannot be anything more then friends.. our culture and religion differences.. too much to think about.. so... have to draw a line ba.. it hurts.. *sobz*
Part Three: The Story Of Min And Sze Hang
hmm.. he is a hong kong guy.. veri funny and comical.. entertaining.. mi influenced by him.. tend to use cantonese more often.. he sings quite well.. he plays the guitar! kwel! we din really hang out alot during training.. we got close after training.. keke.. weird.. went out a few times with him.. veri gentleman.. we always veri goofy together.. doing stupid things... lame conversations.. it was alot of fun.. we have quite a few common interest.. borrowed alot of things from him.. lost count of how many vcds, dvds and comics mi borrowed from him liao..
dunno since went he sent mi loving loving sms.. he compose a song for me! keke.. then.. one fine day.. he sms mi.. confess his feelings.. want mi to give him a chance to love, protect and take care of mi.. haiz.. rejected him also.. we are still good buddies.. he treat mi like before.. veri caring.. haiz...
Conclusion
dunno what mi do lah.. dun wanna break other people's heart leh.. especially people whom mi cares alot for.. mi fated to have no luck in love? sad..
written by min @ 12/13/2004 10:24:00 PM
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