Min is Lost And Lonely


Sunday, September 12, 2004

Min takes a short break from training.. too short!

well.. been pretty tired.. the schedule really hectic.. brain dead.. muscle ache.. here pain there pain.. blue black.. blisters here and there.. evry night feel like dying.. lolz.. mi derserve it.. who ask mi to be so greedy! 1 week down.. 13 more to go!! YEAH!! cheers.. must endure..

kinda sianz.. mi squad 90% malays.. they are a troublesome lot.. most of them very weird.. mean.. like to play with politics.. only a few is nice.. a few ah.. really buey tahan.. try to avoid them.. but trouble always come in mi way.. so kena.. mi hate it.. dunno who is really your friend sia.. mi antenna very short.. mi tactless.. mi very blur.. sometimes kena bullied.. mi dunnno how to survive sia.. walk one step look one step.. hope can live throught this in one pierce.. praying hard..

notice a very strange thing.. mi train so hard.. so many physical training.. never run so hard in mi life sia! very xiong.. and it is only the beginning.. sigh.. must buck up! its all in mi mind.. MIN CAN DO IT! ganbatte.. anyway.. the strange thing is mi actually puts on weight!! mi got exercise control liao leh.. din eat night snacks.. why like that! dun understand.. *sobbing hard* keke.. mi aim is to lose about 5kg.. YEAH!!! must work hard towards mi goal.. mi want a nice waist line.. flat abdomen.. shapey legs.. lolz.. must be dreaming.. work hard!

haiz.. yesterday mi did stupid things again.. A icq mi.. hw say mi like Ah Ma.. ery naggy.. maybe he dun like to talk to mi lah.. then he ask mi whether mi want pressies.. and do mi want him to bring mi out to celebrate mi birthday.. mi din answer him at first lah.. was surprised lor.. abit happy that he remember.. but then.. feel weird when he asked whether mi want any pressies from him.. like mi very thick skin leh.. then about going out.. mi very afraid to see him leh.. the thing is.. mi almost said yes.. so tempted.. kind of miss him.. but so paiseh leh.. dunno what he will think of mi.. dunno if he will look down on mi.. dunno what to say.. dunno what to do.. what if we have a bad time.. what if mi make a fool out of miself.. what if mi enjoy his accompany.. so many what if.. haiz.. finally decided to tell thim mi not celebrating.. but a lot of ??? in mi mind.. why his change.. ask mi to dream of him and such.. what is his reason for doing so? *puzzled*

haiz.. time for mi to pack up liao.. tata sisters.. take care! miss all of you...

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