Min is Lost And Lonely


Sunday, August 29, 2004

 tired.. and sad..

so tired.. work so hectic.. stressful.. high blood pressure.. physically, mentally n emotionally taxing... the people always play politic games..then mi is the veri blur and tactless person.. mi dunno how to play the game.. and mi seriously dun like it.. got some really bitchy people there.. cannot stand.. play the good person then stab you in the back while you not looking.. sianz..

one week left to training.. 2 gers quit liao.. suddenly quite demoralise.. questioning my ability.. espically now.. its been such a long time.. but suddenly A decide to icq mi.. he insisted to know what is mi doing now.. so mi finally gave in and told him.. he said many things that brokes mi heart and made mi veri sad.. low morale..



really dunno why.. why isit mi so weak.. so easily affected by what he said.. all these while when we totally have no contact.. mi can push the painful memories and sadness to one side.. immerse miself in work and friends.. but whenever he appears.. the memories surface,, make mi realise that everything is there.. it is just that mi refuse to aknowledge it.. deciving miself.. arg.. hate miself..



written by min @ 8/29/2004 12:13:00 AM
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