Min is Lost And Lonely


Monday, July 05, 2004

 confused..... and scared....

on saturday.. aus icq mi.. then mi just talk crap as usual lor.. the topic of friendster came up.. then he told mi he just login and updated his account.. he registered long time ago.. but only login for the second time that day.. in years.. well.. naturally mi kepo and do a search using his email.. saw his photo.. then check up our "connections" in the friendster network.. most connections are through secondary school mates.. after that we talked about other things.. he never ask mi to add him or anything like that..

dunno why.. it make mi feels kinda sad.. even though its just a small matter.. pretty insignificant.. but.. somehow it just gets to mi.. mi feel like we are strangers pretending to be friends.. he only say we are still friends cos he is guilty ba.. mi force miself to conceal mi true emotions and be his friend cos.. mi wanna let him feel better..

mi have told miself that it is over..
mi have told miself to crush all hopes..
mi have told miself to move on..

mi thought mi have succeed..

but why? why is there a tinge of pain, ache and sadness deep in mi heart?




written by min @ 7/05/2004 12:47:00 AM
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