About Me
Sunday, May 09, 2004
Mi have so much to say.. but dunno where to start..
Yesterday xueli was registering her university modules.. and she was pondering what to choose for humanities.. one of the choice is econs.. she was asking mi opinion.. mi told her mi views.. but for safety mi sms Eugene to try to find out more info..
So Eugene said he dunno.. so mi sms Aus.. then mi continue the conversation with eugene.. he said he is very sad.. so being his buddy.. mi wanna find out why and talk to him about that.. happens to be that he kena rejected for the 3rd time by the gal he love liao.. and it is his last day to be in the hostel.. so he quite depressed..
Well.. mi dunno what to say to him lor.. dunno how to console him.. mi told him the usual words.. then he say it also applies to mi.. and he told mi something mi dreading to hear.. he told mi tat Aus have been chasing after another gal for quite a long time le.. mi heart sank.. mi stunned.. cos mi not prepared.. mi have no idea of what is coming on my way..
The whole world suddenly turned so quiet.. mi can almost hear mi heart cracking.. mi world collapsed.. mi know its going to happen someday.. but mi can’t help but feel the heartache.. mi so lost.. dunno what to do.. mi told kaili.. she quite worked up.. mi told her that mi will not contact him anymore.. then Aus came online.. he icq mi.. mi dunno how to react.. so mi pretend that everything is normal and talked to him.. kaili know about it and she says mi saying one thing but doing another.. but mi not.. mi mean mi will not initiate any conversations with him.. if he choose to talk to mi then mi will talk to him.. we are friends.. that is if he wants to.. kaili.. dun be angry with mi.. mi know you get worked up cos you cares about mi.. mi will take care of miself from now on le..
Mi thought mi will cry mi hearts out.. but mi shocked myself.. mi cried for 10 minutes.. then mi tears dried.. thats when mi know mi heart is dead.. real dead.. mi stare outside mi window.. then suddenly it is morning..
Mi so tired.. could hardly open mi eyes.. then Eugene call mi.. he on the way back to NTU to return the hostel keys.. so asked mi out for lunch.. mi met him at Jurong Entertainment.. he dares to be late.. kns.. we ate at Macdonalds.. he told mi more about Aus.. mi got a big shocked..
Aus have indeed changed a lot.. not the guy mi know and love.. he changed in army.. changed in university.. a person who is almost a stranger to mi..even Eugene and xueli agrees.. the gal he like looks abit ah lian.. a chongster.. he followed her around everywhere.. Eugene and many others called him superglue behide his back.. on valentines day he gave her a big bouquet of roses and diamond necklace... and some other incidents.. can see that many people despise his actions.. Eugene buddy buddy with that gal and ask him if Aus got any chance.. she said no..
Mi suddenly feel so stupid and foolish.. dunno why mi make myself so miserable for the last 10 mths.. wished that Eugene have told mi earlier.. mi suddenly feel enlighten.. he told xueli he dunno how to face mi.. he so guilty for what he did to mi.. he told mi in his email.. he said he cannot be a good boyfriend.. he no confidence in relationships.. so within a few months he can fall for a gal and court her like that? he never give mi this kinda treatment before leh.. mi feel so worthless in his mind.. maybe he haven really love mi before..
Mi keep laughing.. in irony.. mi make him too perfect in mi mind.. eugene showed mi the him now.. the true picture.. and mi decide to move on le.. this time it is for real.. mi still wish him happiness though.. may god bless him..
Oh oh.. mi and Eugene went to kbox.. damn expensive.. more then 20 bucks per person.. guess its money well spent.. that Eugene.. keep patting mi head and messing mi hair.. argh.. at one point he even clasped mi head between his hands and shake mi.. buey tahan.. then he keep asking mi to move on.. but he ah.. still hanging on.. overall had a good day.. catch up with Eugene.. keke.. buddy feeling comes back..
Mi now breathes more easily.. like a great burden being removed.. ah.. feels good.. hope mi can improve from here..
Sisters.. its great to have you people around.. mi know you people concern about mi.. keke.. mi also know you people vomit blood trying to talk sense into mi..
Xueli.. its great to have you.. Sonya.. mi really touched that you called mi.. keke.. mi appreciate it a lot..
Now no more worries le.. cos mi move on le..
Yesterday xueli was registering her university modules.. and she was pondering what to choose for humanities.. one of the choice is econs.. she was asking mi opinion.. mi told her mi views.. but for safety mi sms Eugene to try to find out more info..
So Eugene said he dunno.. so mi sms Aus.. then mi continue the conversation with eugene.. he said he is very sad.. so being his buddy.. mi wanna find out why and talk to him about that.. happens to be that he kena rejected for the 3rd time by the gal he love liao.. and it is his last day to be in the hostel.. so he quite depressed..
Well.. mi dunno what to say to him lor.. dunno how to console him.. mi told him the usual words.. then he say it also applies to mi.. and he told mi something mi dreading to hear.. he told mi tat Aus have been chasing after another gal for quite a long time le.. mi heart sank.. mi stunned.. cos mi not prepared.. mi have no idea of what is coming on my way..
The whole world suddenly turned so quiet.. mi can almost hear mi heart cracking.. mi world collapsed.. mi know its going to happen someday.. but mi can’t help but feel the heartache.. mi so lost.. dunno what to do.. mi told kaili.. she quite worked up.. mi told her that mi will not contact him anymore.. then Aus came online.. he icq mi.. mi dunno how to react.. so mi pretend that everything is normal and talked to him.. kaili know about it and she says mi saying one thing but doing another.. but mi not.. mi mean mi will not initiate any conversations with him.. if he choose to talk to mi then mi will talk to him.. we are friends.. that is if he wants to.. kaili.. dun be angry with mi.. mi know you get worked up cos you cares about mi.. mi will take care of miself from now on le..
Mi thought mi will cry mi hearts out.. but mi shocked myself.. mi cried for 10 minutes.. then mi tears dried.. thats when mi know mi heart is dead.. real dead.. mi stare outside mi window.. then suddenly it is morning..
Mi so tired.. could hardly open mi eyes.. then Eugene call mi.. he on the way back to NTU to return the hostel keys.. so asked mi out for lunch.. mi met him at Jurong Entertainment.. he dares to be late.. kns.. we ate at Macdonalds.. he told mi more about Aus.. mi got a big shocked..
Aus have indeed changed a lot.. not the guy mi know and love.. he changed in army.. changed in university.. a person who is almost a stranger to mi..even Eugene and xueli agrees.. the gal he like looks abit ah lian.. a chongster.. he followed her around everywhere.. Eugene and many others called him superglue behide his back.. on valentines day he gave her a big bouquet of roses and diamond necklace... and some other incidents.. can see that many people despise his actions.. Eugene buddy buddy with that gal and ask him if Aus got any chance.. she said no..
Mi suddenly feel so stupid and foolish.. dunno why mi make myself so miserable for the last 10 mths.. wished that Eugene have told mi earlier.. mi suddenly feel enlighten.. he told xueli he dunno how to face mi.. he so guilty for what he did to mi.. he told mi in his email.. he said he cannot be a good boyfriend.. he no confidence in relationships.. so within a few months he can fall for a gal and court her like that? he never give mi this kinda treatment before leh.. mi feel so worthless in his mind.. maybe he haven really love mi before..
Mi keep laughing.. in irony.. mi make him too perfect in mi mind.. eugene showed mi the him now.. the true picture.. and mi decide to move on le.. this time it is for real.. mi still wish him happiness though.. may god bless him..
Oh oh.. mi and Eugene went to kbox.. damn expensive.. more then 20 bucks per person.. guess its money well spent.. that Eugene.. keep patting mi head and messing mi hair.. argh.. at one point he even clasped mi head between his hands and shake mi.. buey tahan.. then he keep asking mi to move on.. but he ah.. still hanging on.. overall had a good day.. catch up with Eugene.. keke.. buddy feeling comes back..
Mi now breathes more easily.. like a great burden being removed.. ah.. feels good.. hope mi can improve from here..
Sisters.. its great to have you people around.. mi know you people concern about mi.. keke.. mi also know you people vomit blood trying to talk sense into mi..
Xueli.. its great to have you.. Sonya.. mi really touched that you called mi.. keke.. mi appreciate it a lot..
Now no more worries le.. cos mi move on le..
written by min @ 5/09/2004 01:22:00 AM
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