Min is Lost And Lonely


Saturday, April 17, 2004

hmm.. min is bored bored and bored.. realise mi life so meaningless.. been watching tv.. stuffing miself with snacks.. then online.. keep downloading songs.. been wondering whats the purpose of mi life..

mi like no achievements.. no contributions.. no nothings.. wasting air, food and government resources..

mi failure in family.. in school.. in love.. wonder when will mi actually achieve something in life.. all mi life, mi like haven been really doing something mi wanna do.. everything is like doing what mi parents want mi to do.. even though mi might not like it.. even though mi might fight back.. but always end up losing.. so always have to do what they say.. mi submit to mi fate liao..

the only big decision mi made in mi life so far was to accept him.. and mi dunno whether it is a correct decision.. if mi can choose one more time.. mi will still choose him.. but mi will do things differently.. mi dun wanna be such a lousy gf.. terrible person to get along with.. but its impossible.. its mi regret..

guess mi have accepted the fact that he wun be turning back.. its the end!

mi just heard a phrase today on telly.. it goes like this..

You Cannot Force Someone To Love You,
and You Cannot Force Yourself Not To Love Someone..

guess its true.. mi cannot force him to love mi.. and mi failed to force miself not to love him..

though mi have accepted reality.. mi still have mi feelings for him.. dunno whether this is consider an improvement..


written by min @ 4/17/2004 11:39:00 PM
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