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Sunday, April 04, 2004
hmm.. mi trying to make miself very tired.. so that mi have no energy to think of anything else.. mi plan works.. for 50%.. yeah mi have been tired... but mi mind stilll thinking of what mi should not think off..
as always, mi have been thinking quite alot.. yeah.. like Jieying have said.. mi have been dumped.. but hey! whats the big deal.. its not the end of the world.. life still goes on.. why isit that mi have to dwell in it? why isit that mi have to sink deeper each day? why isit that mi cannot pick up miself? why? am mi such a weak and useless gal? mi guess in alot of sense mi is..
mi have fall hard.. it hurts a lot.. and mi have been sitting on the floor doing nothing to help miself.. mi just sits down and cry.. mi hopes he will turn back and pick mi up.. what foolish thoughts.. mi is very clear in mi mind that he wouldn't do that.. he don't want mi.. thats final.. but why do mi still have that bit of hope?
prehaps mi have the strength to climb up miself.. mi friends have also tried to helped mi.. maybe mi refused to be helped.. mi dunno why..
prehaps mi enjoys being sad? prehaps mi prefers to suffer in melancholy?
mi so confused.. mi know mi feelings for him can't be removed.. mi can't stop think and missing him.. maybe mi not trying hard enough? mi think mi know what to do.. mi have to accept the fact that its over.. mi have to get on with mi life.. stop making miself miserable.. but mi can continue to have mi feelings for him? mi dun have to be with him.. as long as he is willing to talk to mi once in a while.. mi will be content.. like what mi always said.. the biggest wish is that he is healthy, doing well in his studies and be happy.. if he have found a gal worthy of his love.. mi will give them mi blessings..
hope it isn't too much to ask.. god.. if you hear mi prayer.. please make them come true..
as always, mi have been thinking quite alot.. yeah.. like Jieying have said.. mi have been dumped.. but hey! whats the big deal.. its not the end of the world.. life still goes on.. why isit that mi have to dwell in it? why isit that mi have to sink deeper each day? why isit that mi cannot pick up miself? why? am mi such a weak and useless gal? mi guess in alot of sense mi is..
mi have fall hard.. it hurts a lot.. and mi have been sitting on the floor doing nothing to help miself.. mi just sits down and cry.. mi hopes he will turn back and pick mi up.. what foolish thoughts.. mi is very clear in mi mind that he wouldn't do that.. he don't want mi.. thats final.. but why do mi still have that bit of hope?
prehaps mi have the strength to climb up miself.. mi friends have also tried to helped mi.. maybe mi refused to be helped.. mi dunno why..
prehaps mi enjoys being sad? prehaps mi prefers to suffer in melancholy?
mi so confused.. mi know mi feelings for him can't be removed.. mi can't stop think and missing him.. maybe mi not trying hard enough? mi think mi know what to do.. mi have to accept the fact that its over.. mi have to get on with mi life.. stop making miself miserable.. but mi can continue to have mi feelings for him? mi dun have to be with him.. as long as he is willing to talk to mi once in a while.. mi will be content.. like what mi always said.. the biggest wish is that he is healthy, doing well in his studies and be happy.. if he have found a gal worthy of his love.. mi will give them mi blessings..
hope it isn't too much to ask.. god.. if you hear mi prayer.. please make them come true..
written by min @ 4/04/2004 10:40:00 PM
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