Min is Lost And Lonely


Wednesday, March 10, 2004

Raining heavily again.... keke... maybe can take mi little walk later....

been talking to shifu (mi poly senior)... hes so cute.. from a nerd nerd guy become a cute guy who knows how to do romantic stuff... while talking to him, mi learnt more about guys... things which mi will never discover by miself...

been wondering.. why isit guys are always so sweet.. so cute... so near perfect when he wanna get you??

he will put in so much effort, do so many things... to get your attention... early in the morning, he will wait for you near your home and fetch you to school... he will steal looks at you whenever you are near him... so attentive when you talk to him.. he will wait for you to end your lessons and send you home... if you wanna go shopping he will accompany you.... he is so patient to you... no grumbles...

slowly your heart softens... he shower you with so much care and concern... you begin to develop feelings for him.. you let him into your heart... you long to see him.. hear his voice.. his smile melts you... you hope he will call or sms.. everything about him entice you.. you begin to care for him.. he remains the perfect guy... the guy of your dreams...

when you finally gave him your heart.. you think he will take care of it.. will never break it... you think you are the luckliest gal on earth.. because the guy you loves loves you... what more can a gal ask?

as times goes by.. he change... to a almost cold blooded guy... a guy who dun cares about you... a guy who neglects you.... a guy who disappoints you.. a guy who hurts you... a guy who breaks your heart...

you ask yourself.. what have you done wrong? why isit he has change so much? why isit he treat you this way? there are a million whys in your head.. you are so lost... you think night and day.. but you find no answer to your questions...

finally he wants to break up with you.. what can you do? you love him so.. but he wanna leave you... you want him to be happy.. you think it is useless to force him to stay with you... so you decide to let him g... even if it breaks you heart to do so.. even if it kills you....

months past.. you haven gotten over him... he is in your mind and thoughts everyday... you cried so much.. you tried to act happy... but deep down inside, you are dying.... when he talks to you.. you try to act as nothing has happen.. so cheerful... you dun want him to know....

you have only one wish... wish that he will be happy....







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