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Monday, March 22, 2004
Its been a tiring weekend... Have been working mi brains out... Mi haven read his last 2 emails to mi once again... (Mi wrote him 2 emails a few months after he dumped mi.. so that’s his reply…) Yes... Mi cried... Yes... Mi heart hurts... All of you may be thinking... Why have mi been reading it so many times? Why have mi kept the emails? There are so many whys...
Mi kept almost everything from him… Movie tickets, sms, emails, cards… Blah... Blah... all of these are mi memories of him... Each of them tell a story... Be it happy or sad ones...
Mi have been reading the emails so many times... Because mi hopes it can offer mi some answers... Every time mi read them... Mi understands more and more of why he dumped mi... This time is no exception…
Of course he has his reasons as in why a breakup will do both of us more good then harm... Basically his reasons are those common ones we always hear…
1) We are not compatible…
2) He cannot provide mi of what mi wants…
3) He does not think that we have a future together…
Blah... Blah… And blah…
Mi can respect all his reasons or whatever… Even though it breaks mi heart… But the biggest blow is not the reasons why he wants a breakup… It is this… He said our relationship is superficial…
This is what kills mi... This is why mi heart is crushed… This is his fatal blow to mi…
How could he say that? We have been together for more then 2 and a half years… Mi has put all mi heart completely in it… Maybe mi is a terrible girlfriend... Maybe mi dunno how to love… But mi loves him… Mi feelings for him are true and sincere… What he said is totally degrading and humiliating to mi… It is the biggest insult of mi life…
He could have said he does not love mi anymore and it will not hurt this much… Mi could at least have console miself that we have loved each other before...
But now? What can mi believe in? What can mi tell miself? He has been lying to mi when he says he loves mi? All his sweet words are lies? What exactly is our relationship? What is mi in his heart? What is mi love to him?
Why is he so cruel? Why does he render the happiest part of mi life as superficial?
Mi read the emails for so many times… To hurt miself... Until mi heart is dead… Until mi do not feel the pain anymore…. Until mi cannot be hurt deeper anymore…
Keke… the above is what mi wrote after mi read the emails… Mi have calmed down liao.. Maybe he is right… Mi kind of love is not true love… It is childish… Not the kind of love he is looking for.. Haiz… Hope he can find someone who can give him the kind of love he wanted… A gal who is more worthy of him…
Mi kept almost everything from him… Movie tickets, sms, emails, cards… Blah... Blah... all of these are mi memories of him... Each of them tell a story... Be it happy or sad ones...
Mi have been reading the emails so many times... Because mi hopes it can offer mi some answers... Every time mi read them... Mi understands more and more of why he dumped mi... This time is no exception…
Of course he has his reasons as in why a breakup will do both of us more good then harm... Basically his reasons are those common ones we always hear…
1) We are not compatible…
2) He cannot provide mi of what mi wants…
3) He does not think that we have a future together…
Blah... Blah… And blah…
Mi can respect all his reasons or whatever… Even though it breaks mi heart… But the biggest blow is not the reasons why he wants a breakup… It is this… He said our relationship is superficial…
This is what kills mi... This is why mi heart is crushed… This is his fatal blow to mi…
How could he say that? We have been together for more then 2 and a half years… Mi has put all mi heart completely in it… Maybe mi is a terrible girlfriend... Maybe mi dunno how to love… But mi loves him… Mi feelings for him are true and sincere… What he said is totally degrading and humiliating to mi… It is the biggest insult of mi life…
He could have said he does not love mi anymore and it will not hurt this much… Mi could at least have console miself that we have loved each other before...
But now? What can mi believe in? What can mi tell miself? He has been lying to mi when he says he loves mi? All his sweet words are lies? What exactly is our relationship? What is mi in his heart? What is mi love to him?
Why is he so cruel? Why does he render the happiest part of mi life as superficial?
Mi read the emails for so many times… To hurt miself... Until mi heart is dead… Until mi do not feel the pain anymore…. Until mi cannot be hurt deeper anymore…
Keke… the above is what mi wrote after mi read the emails… Mi have calmed down liao.. Maybe he is right… Mi kind of love is not true love… It is childish… Not the kind of love he is looking for.. Haiz… Hope he can find someone who can give him the kind of love he wanted… A gal who is more worthy of him…
written by min @ 3/22/2004 11:18:00 AM
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