Min is Lost And Lonely


Friday, January 30, 2004

oh well... these few days are really a bad time for me.... in a state of depression.... haven been sleeping.... besides the pressure and stress that comes with my project... theres another thing bothering me... actually it is always in a corner of my mind.. but something happened... and it bring me back.. to sad memories....

that day kaili accidentally told me about guy E's journel... of which the first entry is about me... it describes quite in detail of i did and how he felt... i feel guilty and totally rotten... i know that i hurt him.. i am too childish to handle the situation... but i had no idea that at that time i gave him that much hurt and heart ache... i must have been a really really lousy person... i feel sick of myself.. just feel like dropping dead... then me will not feel this miserable...

i am quite tired of trying to look cheerful... even though it is to ensure my friend that i am alright.... even jieying notice that i am moody... guess i must pick up myself and convience everybody that i am fine.... i will... someday...

sorry kaili... i promised that i will not feel upset... but i just can't help it.... i am sorry... i will be alright... after dropping some tears... after some sleepless nights....

written by min @ 1/30/2004 05:38:00 PM
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